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I think he was the guy who ran the orphanage, Kazama-san. He was my dad, but not actually my dad or something...?

[ It must have been something like that, considering... ]

A while ago, I remembered begging him to join his family. That's how I ended up with Dojima, Kazama-san wouldn't let me join his.

[ he nods, listening. and then he's quiet for a moment before asking ]

You weren't scared? Even seein' her shot in front of ya?

[ Kiryu thinks back. He'd been a little scared, but not of Awano, not really. ]

Awano was all talk. He did things because they were fun... he wasn't interested in honor or anything. He said being a yakuza was just a job to him.

[ Even if Kiryu might disagree with being a yakuza, he can't stop the way he'd felt in that memory. He was proud of it then, and he's proud of it now. ]

I was surprised when he shot her, but I could tell he was all talk. Killing me wouldn't have been fun for him. [ And now, for the most Kiryu Kazuma line Kiryu has ever said in Recolle: ] I knew a guy like that couldn't touch me.

[ majima has never been more turned on by kiryu than in this moment ]

Anyone would want ta keep ya around ta beat ya fair in a fight.

[ Shit just got really Yakuza in here. ]

Exactly. If he wanted me dead, he would have done it. He said he had a hundred men waiting for me outside, but it was bullshit. He needed my information and he tried to scare me into telling him, but he should've known I don't scare easily.

[ Kiryu smirks again. This is a very new and smug side of him, damn. ]

I told him I'd rather get shot than work with a guy like him.

[ man its still sometimes strange to think of kiryu, this pencil pushing nerd, as this man who can say these things. but it is so attractive. dokidoki motherfucker. majima scoots closer and i'm regretting having submitted this thread to the mods for a regain ]

Damn, Kiryu-chan. That's hardcore.

[ Sorry your boyfriend is Smoking Hot, Majima. But he also remembered something super badass, so it's hard not to sound like a badass when he's recounting it. ]

Yeah. It was super badass. I can see how I made it in the Yakuza for so long.

[ He had honor and a code and nobody wants to fuck with a guy like that. ]

It ain't jus' that you're strong.

[ he reaches over, putting his hand on kiryu's chest. not to grope him, but to make a meaningful gesture where his heart is. ]

It's that ya wanna do things right. That ya got honor.

[ he hopes that he had some of that, too. ]

[ I mean groping him is fine too, but he understands. ]

Thanks, Majima.

[ Kiryu smiles. He knows Majima has his own honor as a Yakuza, he told him himself back when they had that cage match to discuss the Okinawa deal or whatever it was. ]

A guy like him wasn't worth my time. He's not like you.

That means a lot.

[ especially because, ah, yes, the memory he got back. ]

But I didn't...I didn't follow orders. I didn't do what was supposedta - I wasn't like you.

It's true.

[ Majima always had his respect, as far as he could tell. ]

I wasn't following orders then. The Dojima family was after me.

[ How did he quit if he came back?? Who the fuck knows. ]

You're not listenin' to me.

[ it's rare for him to say it, but this is an important point he's trying to get across and kiryu, for all he is caring is trying to help in a way that doesn't get to the heart of the issue. that doesn't hear the things in between the words. the implications. there's a time where they'll both understand each other completely, but there are still things both of them don't quite understand in the translation of each other's idiosyncratic ways of speaking. ]

I fucked up. I fucked up with my kyoudai an' with that deal with the hit. [ if, before, he had felt like saejima killing him was his due he feels it 10 times stronger now. ] An' I -- my boss tortured me for it. For a year. And then he shipped me off to live like a civilian with his oath brother.

[ Kiryu shuts up. He listens. He knew Majima was tortured, knew they'd taken his eye and thrown him in some hole for something he couldn't help. That made sense. He didn't know that Majima had been forced to live like a civilian, or that it'd been his own boss who'd tortured him back then. For a year.

Kiryu listens to what Majima doesn't say. It's unheard of for a boss to take so direct an interest in someone. Anyone else would have been dead, no one could make it to where Majima did with a start like that. ]

I see.

[ It's true, he's not like Kiryu. But not because he had less honor or anything like that, but because he'd suffered like Kiryu hadn't. That much was painfully clear. ]

That's awful. I'm sorry.

I guess I was livin' in Sotenbori for two years. Bein' a civilian that whole time. Must've been where I was doin' the cabaret thing.

[ he pulls away from him, leaning back in on the couch. he looks up at the ceiling and sighs ]

So my boss, his name was Shimano. And his oath brother Sagawa. [ he feels like its important to say their names out loud. if for nothing else but to make sure he doesn't forget them. ] Sagawa treated me like I was his pet.

[ so he doesn't get why, in the memory he has wearing that hideous jacket, he felt this weird attachment to him. something like respect. but also wanted to leave him as soon as he could. ]

[ Kiryu nods. It would explain why Majima remembered Sotenbori, when Kiryu only remembered Kamurocho. They'd both been there. Where Kiryu's boss had been like a father, Majima's boss... tortured him and handed him off to his oath brother. ]

That sucks.

[ He places a hand on Majima's thigh, just resting it there for comfort. He can't do much more than this, and that might be the shittiest part of all. (It's not, Kiryu.) ]

It didn't matter ta me. I jus' wanted back in the Tojo Clan.

[ he makes a noise of frustration and shakes his head ]

I don't fuckin' get it, I was doin' it all for my kyoudai but when ya fought me on the roof of that buildin' I'd quit. Why the fuck would I do that after everythin'?

[ kiwami 2 coming to a game store near you this december ]

Something must've happened.

[ Or Majima realized the futility in waiting for his oath bro to die in jail? Who knows. Kiwami 2, pls assist. ]

I'm sure you'll remember why, someday.

I hope so. It seems wrong ta do him like that after everythin' else.

Yeah.

[ Kiryu nods. ]

Knowing you, you wouldn't have just quit over nothing. It had to have been something big.

It seems like I worked my ass of jus' ta get back into the Tojo Clan. I mean, it must've fuckin' happened I think the Sotenbori stuff was earlier, so.

[ earlier than his memories with kiryu. pre-snakeskin jacket. ]

Right.

[ It must have been before... Kiryu can't remember when they first met, but Majima feels so reliably Yakuza in his memories that Kiryu can't picture knowing him when he was anything but. ]

At least it paid off, right? You got in, had your giant family.

[ And then got killed but you know... that's how their stories end?? ]

Got back in, had the family an' then left until ya convinced me ta come back. But it wasn't -- I don't think I wanted those things.

Which things? The family?

[ Did you ever want anything for yourself and not for Saejima? That's the real question, Majima. ]

[ literally no ]

Yeah. I wanted it for Saejima.

[ he says his name slowly, like he's still getting used to it. his first time saying his name out loud but it feels like he's said it so many times before. ]

I knew he'd come back, an' I'd give it all to him.

Saejima... your kyoudai.

[ It's obvious by the way he says it. This was a man who mattered deeply to Majima. It's no surprise to hear that reverence in his voice. ]

He wanted to climb the ranks, not you?

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