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No, Majima, that's not... I would never let that happen.

[ But he did, and he remembers the guilt he felt, the weight of his inaction even in the memory. It's true they lived a dangerous life, it should have come as no surprise, but it still hurt. It was a shock. Majima was supposed to live. He remembers sitting in his car, being so powerless and frustrated and sad that the words wouldn't come.

It was obvious he'd taken Majima for granted. His safety isn't just a given, that much Kiryu knows now. He reaches up and sets a hand on the back of Majima's neck, keeping him close. ]

I won't let that happen.

It's not somethin' ya gotta control.

[ he tries to offer him a smile - he doesn't know what'll help to calm kiryu down from what's obviously both a lot of fear and a lot of guilt. funny, how often he's in situations where he's helping another person instead of taking care of himself. but he'd never see it that way.]

Still.

[ He shakes his head, still leaning in close. Majima's not the one who should be comforting him here, it should be the other way around. ]

I can handle the rest. I can't let you die.

Maybe I wasn't dead, or...

[ he doesn't sound very certain of it, even as he offers it as an option. ]

I don't know. I do know it's not your fault, though.

Maybe...

[ Their lives were certainly crazy enough for them to need to fake their own deaths, probably. ]

I should have been there for you. Instead I was... driving some taxi or something. I could have done more.

[ Why is Kiryu such a jerk in Yakuza 5..... ]

Kiryu-chan, if I died it was through my own damn mistakes. It woulda happened whether or not you'd been there.

We're supposed to be family, though. I wasn't there for you.

[ I mean, they're in the Tojo Clan together, that much is obvious. Kiryu just needs some time to make this about himself... ]

Ya had your own life, Kiryu. It wasn't always about me. An' that's -- that's fine. It didn't haveta be.

[ Kiryu knows Majima's right, for all that they remember being close and sharing so many things. Still, the way things are now is better. It'll be better if he can prevent anything like that from happening. ]

It won't happen like that this time.

[ majima's quiet for a long moment while he thinks this over. thinks about how kiryu might act after this. what it'll mean for both of them. finally, when he speaks, his voice is confident and sure: ]

I want ya ta promise me somethin'.

[ Kiryu responds quickly, wanting to do as Majima asks. ]

What is it?

[ majima looks at him, strong and meaningfully. ]

Promise me that ya aren't gonna go followin' me around like I'm some kinda breakable object.

[ Kiryu's eyes widen in surprise. He can't say he wasn't thinking it, but Majima must know him pretty well to have called it. ]

I... no, I won't do that.

[ He shakes his head again. ]

I know you're strong, Majima. I know things are different here.

[ he does know kiryu pretty well. but he's glad kiryu isn't stubborn and agrees to the promise. he squeezes his hand. he's not done yet. ]

Promise me, ta the best of your ability, that ya won't hold onta this regret.

I'll try.

[ He squeezes Majima's hand, keeping his eyes trained on his. Majima had lost an eye to all this. He knows what he's talking about. ]

It's... It's like what you said. With a life like ours, it was bound to happen.

[ He pauses, collecting his thoughts. ]

I'll try, Majima.

That's right.

[ he leans forward and kisses kiryu on the lips, slow and drawn out before pulling away just enough to talk to him. ]

I'm here, now. An' I'm yours, as long as you'll have me.

[ He can't ask Majima to be careful, or to ask him for help if he ever suspects he's in real danger. Those things aren't realistic for who they are, and Kiryu knows he wouldn't want to change Majima. He loves him for who he is. ]

Okay.

[ Kiryu kisses back, languidly tasting Majima like he might memorize him like this. ]

Me too. That's not gonna change.

I know.

[ or, at the very least, he knows kiryu wants to mean it. which is just as good. ]

As long as you'll have me, I'm here for you.

[ Maybe Majima will die, or maybe he won't. They're not at a point where they're in any danger of that, at least. They both survived monsters. They can do this. ]

I'm yours, too.

[ majima kisses him again, moving his hand from the side of his face to his chest. he wants to touch him, i'm sorry. he loves his boyfriend. ]

[ Look, it's fair, Kiryu's super ripped and touching him is just one of those sweet boyfriend perks. He welcomes the touch and deepens the kiss, gripping Majima's neck as he pulls him closer. At least here, he has Majima. He won't lose him if he has anything to say about it.

The other stuff can wait. ]

[ yeah he doesn't need to be asked again, he climbs into his lap and kisses him hard. ]

[ Sweet. I mean, kissing is way better than knowing Majima probably died. Kiryu scoots to make sure Majima's comfortable on top of him and holds him close as they kiss. If he has Majima, he knows things will be alright. Even if they turned out to be enemies or whatever else the memories might bring, the relationship they have is more important. Kiryu couldn't do this alone. ]

[ okay really realistically they're going to do it because they're sad and needy, but after they're done with that: ]

I'm not goin' anywhere, okay?

Yeah.

[ Kiryu pulls Majima close, smiling softly. ]

Me neither.

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